Just What I Needed....

After the week that I have had, hell... After the month that I have had this weekend is exactly what I needed to unwind and let it all go. It wasn't anything spectacular, I didn't do anything great, I didn't save the world, but I loved every second of this weekend from riding in the car to Lake George with everyone to sitting beside a fire sharing stories to sitting at a resturaunt having intelligent conversation.

We have four circles of balance that must be maintained in order to achieve happiness throughout our lives. Mental, Physical, Emtional, and Spiritual. I learned long ago that understanding these circles of balance, and how they affect our lives, makes a difference. I have been content Spiritually so that was not a need this weekend; however every other circle was out of whack and this weekend put them back in balance. This weekend I was fulfilled mentally, physically, and emtionally, and because of so I am content and happy.

Starting at the end of next month I will be beginning a new chapter in my life and as I start to wrap this one up I am realizing the choices I must make and actions I will have to take in order for me to be completely content with where I am heading. And that does mean cutting ties, limiting my time with friends, and creating more time for myself. I need to find out what will help me progress in the direction of my goals rather than weigh me down or cause unnecessary stress; especially if I am going to double major.

I'm scared shitless to be starting over again but I know it's something that I have to do in order to be where I want to be in the near & distant future. I see myself having a decent business and/or client base, I see myself exploring many new opportunities, whether it be traveling or vocational, I see myself with that stability of a tight, closeknit family. But I can never achieve that if I let fear sit in my way.

Things are finally starting to fall into place, and those things that do not have a place are being left behind. I can no longer be bothered wasting my time on meaningless things or on people who can not be bothered to waste their time on me. I have dreams, ambitions, desires and I am going after them. No matter what those who read this may say, I will achieve what it is I am striving for, I always have; that's my nature...